I’m often inspired by music. I’ve found that many times songs can set my mood. At other times, I listen to whatever songs fit the mood I’m already in. I love songs of hope and love, songs that encourage me to be better. Then there are dark days where I find myself listening to darker sounds with lyrics reaching for any light that can be found.

Radiohead sings a song I find myself listening to when I don’t feel I can look at myself in the mirror, and I am questioning my very existence.

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so f***in' special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I wanna have control
I wanna a perfect body
I wanna a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so f***in' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here, oh, oh
She's running out the door
She's running
She run, run, run, run
Run
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f***in' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here*

Besides the fact that it seems like it has rained constantly lately where I live. I’ve been in a dark place, for a season, for various reasons. probably since before the holidays. It’s been hard to concentrate on the simplest of things, much less the important stuff. I’ve neglected things I promised I wouldn’t. I’ve neglected people who’ve believed in me, even when they would have probably been better served to have walked away.

But they didn’t leave me, and the sun is trying to break through the clouds.

We all have seasons of darkness. We all have days when the clouds block out the sunshine. We have to still get up. We have to believe for brighter days. Darkness can’t hide the light, no matter how much it tries.

Seek out the light.

Change the song.

Be inspired to hope.

You do belong here.

It’s ok if we’re all weirdos.

Brighter days are coming.

Just believe.

Go be the best you possible.

If you can do nothing else, change the world around you.

I know these all may sound like simple silly little phrases to you, but we have got to find a lyric in the song of life that helps each of us hold on until the light shines again.

* Creep by Radiohead

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