If I could instantly master any skill, I’d choose piano.

Not guitar, not a language, not some impressive party trick. Piano.

For twenty years, I led worship. I sang, I led, I poured myself into music meant to lift other people closer to God. But I always needed someone else behind the keys. A pianist who could follow me, or who I had to follow. Someone whose schedule had to align with mine, whose interpretation I had to adapt to, whose absence on a given Sunday meant scrambling. I never got to just sit down and be the whole instrument — voice and accompaniment, together, exactly the way I heard it in my head.

I play a little now. Enough to get by, not enough to trust myself in front of anyone.

So if I could master it instantly, here’s what I’d actually do: I’d start a YouTube channel. Not a worship channel — or not only that. I love piano ballads, the kind of song that’s just a voice and a keyboard and nothing to hide behind. I’d cover the songs that have shaped me over the years, the ones I hum without realizing it, the ones that say something I couldn’t say on my own. I wouldn’t need much. No fancy studio, no expensive gear — just a decent mic, a keyboard, and finally, finally, not needing anyone else’s hands to make the music happen.

There’s something in that for me beyond the music itself. Twenty years of depending on someone else to complete the sound. I think I’m ready to be the whole thing.

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