When Going Back Ends Up Leading Forward
I’m not really sure why it happened, but it did. I was on a path, had a plan, and now… it has changed. I was heading in the direction I thought I was supposed to go, when along the way I pulled over to think, and for some reason came to the conclusion that I needed to turn around and go back a bit. For the last several months I’ve been pursuing something I thought I was interested in, but in my heart I really wanted something else. I guess it felt like just one more thing, one more class, one more certificate on the wall.
So after a time of contemplation I’ve now set a new course that, for me, feels like it will be more fulfilling. I’m all for moving forward, but sometimes we’re reminded of something we left behind or something we passed along the way. For me this time of looking back has ultimately led me forward.
I guess I should say this is life and career related, just to be clear. I’m certified and licensed in several different things and have pursued a couple vocationally. I have really enjoyed some of the things I was privileged to be a part of, but my circumstances have changed, my desires have changed, and life is forcing me to change as well.
For me one thing has always remained at the heart of all my decisions; that is my desire to be of service and to help other people. I was a minister for many years, in many different roles, and remember fondly some of the duties I performed. That is the foundation to which I’ll build upon. So in my turning around and looking with a new perspective, I began to see and appreciate some things about myself and about those things that I was remembering. As a result I have decided to pursue the things I enjoy the most, am the best at, and I am going to start a new business. Yes I said business. I believe we’re all ministers, in our own way, and I will always have a heart for ministry. I am just at a point where I feel like it is important that my services should be inclusive to more groups of people than organized religion tends to attract. My new venture will incorporate many of the things that I excelled in from my ministry days, but will have fresh eyes and renewed energy.
Life lessons have taught me to trust myself, to trust that little voice in my head that knows what’s best for me, and that it’s ok to just be who I am. I’ve tried far too long to look like something I’m not and to fit into a mold I didn’t come out of. Those days have passed. For the first time in a while, I’m actually excited for a new venture and have no doubt of its success.
I am hoping to get everything off the ground in the coming weeks and will make an official announcement with appropriate links and info very soon.